this is wat we miss
i stumbled purposely upon this. and for a long time, it was something that could make me nearly tear. u noe, its tt kind of feelin jus before u cry.
"i miss ruth and chris being despo and giving guys ratings,i miss cassie gossipping over ugly boys,i miss teasing suzie about crashing the cymbals in the morning,i miss brynner's teasing charmaine and angus,i miss mugalot ponning lessons and coming to school sleepy eyed,i miss sheng's jokes,i miss our slack jawed awe at karen'ts art,i miss shermin's enthusiasm,i miss steph's singing in class,i miss slacking in gr34,i miss laughter at the tables,i miss talentime.i miss the hugging and laughing,i miss the tears,i miss the bond that we fought so hard to preserve."
dear fren, this is not wat you miss. this is wat we miss. pls pull urself together.
lots of love, sheng
a02 living on in our juniors!
Well, now not only Jeff can see the beautiful tradition of unity, all the A02 ppl can too :)
I was emotionally stirred when I came back to look at our 1st 3 months photos. I saw the talentime dance photos, and I saw one of the most beautiful pictures my eyes have ever seen. Our friends were in the perfect poses, each body responding to each other's movement - where there was a forward lean there was a backward slant. [We accommodated each other]. Steph was perched on Brynner's shoulder, and the whole dance group was elevated [We were at the height of our glory]. The glitter on the banner behind dazzled and came alive to surround them, drizzling down the stage [like bright tears of proud classmates as we cheered for the BEST DANCE GROUP]. It is the most spectacular thing I will ever have the fortune of seeing, and actually experiencing. Thanks so much to all of you who made it possible for the mundane to be made fantastical, for the then and past to be made immortal. I miss us all together. Sheng and Brynner and Cassie and Nat you continue to be part of A02 that has that special place in my heart. The class has been imprinted by your words, your thoughts, your deeds, I'll never forget how you showed me the meaning of unity and support. I love you all so much!
Now that our junior class is going through what we'd gone through, I'm so saddened. Remember, it was fortunate that most of us could stay together. We had successful appeals and most of us remained in A02. But even though we won that victory, what happened from there? Some of us say we've lost the A02 spirit. Is that true? Nowadays when we sing the A02 song, I'm so tired and I find it hard to believe that the A02 we're singing about is but a distant memory. Are we singing about US? And I can't sing the song anymore, because if I do it's just a lie. I can't find that unity and 'always stay together' motto anymore!! Ruth also thinks we're becoming scattered. Why don't we sit at the same table anymore? Will our physical separation cause the diffusion of our values and loyalty?
This is why I can't console 06A02. How can I tell them to fight when I'm in doubt of what they're fighting for? To fight to be like us? A half-spirited class left in the shadow of the past glamour of 1st 3 months triumph and enthusiasm?
But we HAVE succeeded in staying together. At least physically. And I think we should use that grace given to us, although now I really doubt we deserved it, to treasure what we've fought for, what we've actually WON, for our class, not just ourselves. We've won the battle, but our victory's not on the battlefield. Are we strong enough to make it back home?
To my juniors, 06A02
today was judgement day for A02. i've never felt so nasty the whole day, so troubled, so laden. i kept asking myself, why is it that on the last day of school, when 8 will leave A02 can all the others still go to class like ntg happened, sit seperate from the class and act like its a normal schoolday? i could see it in Jac's eyes, her disappointment, and her disgust. perhaps i preferred it more that they cried it out, tell me at least they felt something, at least they cared about A02. all their silence tormented me more than anything else.
i sat and beheld the class. was it my fault? i sat and beheld their OGLs. not all were as affected as me by their breaking up. some went on their mundane things. i cant fault them. they've their own lifes. unfortunately for me, i've given my life to them my darlings.
can i ever still call A02 my own? perhaps not. i'll miss them. those little "talks" with choon hang, the gentleman. the crap sharlene will tell me. Karen and Jac sitting with them. Tiff and Tammie taking turns to suan me. Michelle and Jun Quan sitting quietly by the side, always ready to chip in a laughter or two. Well occasionally michelle will return me a retort or two and laugh wickedly with the rest. That's A02 for me. A small group who have epitomised the spirit. but who will be broken after today.
its not the fate that binds, but the effort that takes you through. as long as you will, you will be A02 till the day you pass on.
My darlings, here's wishing you all the best with a tear in my eye.