To my juniors, 06A02
today was judgement day for A02. i've never felt so nasty the whole day, so troubled, so laden. i kept asking myself, why is it that on the last day of school, when 8 will leave A02 can all the others still go to class like ntg happened, sit seperate from the class and act like its a normal schoolday? i could see it in Jac's eyes, her disappointment, and her disgust. perhaps i preferred it more that they cried it out, tell me at least they felt something, at least they cared about A02. all their silence tormented me more than anything else.
i sat and beheld the class. was it my fault? i sat and beheld their OGLs. not all were as affected as me by their breaking up. some went on their mundane things. i cant fault them. they've their own lifes. unfortunately for me, i've given my life to them my darlings.
can i ever still call A02 my own? perhaps not. i'll miss them. those little "talks" with choon hang, the gentleman. the crap sharlene will tell me. Karen and Jac sitting with them. Tiff and Tammie taking turns to suan me. Michelle and Jun Quan sitting quietly by the side, always ready to chip in a laughter or two. Well occasionally michelle will return me a retort or two and laugh wickedly with the rest. That's A02 for me. A small group who have epitomised the spirit. but who will be broken after today.
its not the fate that binds, but the effort that takes you through. as long as you will, you will be A02 till the day you pass on.
My darlings, here's wishing you all the best with a tear in my eye.
