Who says I am throwing A02 away?
Ruth made me feel extremely guilty just the other day even if she did not intend to. She said I am giving you guys the impression that A02 means nothing to me already because I am very attached to A01.
I know I should not have sat with my A01 friends during GP and should have continued sitting with Adrian, Charlene and Ling Hui. But it seemed to me every GP lesson I am always seated at the side because I come in late from Geography, and when I sit at the side (especially beside Charlene) no one bothers to tell me aught that you guys are discussing and when you guys burst out laughing, no one bothers to share anything with me unless I ask, or unless I strain to hear.
I also know that I seldom go over to the A02 table and sit with you people during lunch. As Ruth so aptly puts it "I drop by all the time. Charmaine drops by once in a while. But you never drop by at all." It is not because I do not feel inclined to, but please understand that I am obliged to eat with my class.
Then Ruth said that it is possible to strike a balance between the time spent with both classes, so as to enjoy the best of both worlds. For her this is easy to achieve due to her outgoing and cheerful nature. But for me it is another matter entirely, I am not a very sociable person and I seek for stability and security when establishing friendships. If I attempt to flit to and fro from Ao1 to Ao2, I will be drifting in the middle of nowhere. On one hand I am not as close to you guys as we once were, and yet on the other I would not be close to my form class. Therefore the logical way out for me would be to devote almost all my attention solely to Ao1.
I am sorry this has to be the case, and can say no more except to promise to spent as much time as I can with you guys without jeopardising my relationship with my classmates.