Rhoda's entry got me thinking, would i have been happier in another class? at least i wont be as sad as i am now.
But if i were denied A02 in nJ, would i have understood the meaning of a class? of being together? of truly loving each other?
when i look back on my school life, what have i to say that i miss school? what have i to say to my children when they come home and tell me that school sucks? should i tell them : "yeah. guess what? your pa had a suckier class than you did."
What should i tell my children when they tell me they found a marvellous class. Shld i say "nah thats a big fat lie. No classes are beautiful. Pa had so many sucky class in his life to tell you what you have is a mere illusion"
What will i say to my parents when they ask me hows school? Shall i say what ive said for the past years "is school ever fun?"
What shall i say to my friends about nJ, now and later? Shall i say "well we mug. yeah. i think thats all"?
i think A02 provided me with meaningful answers to all these questions. A02 was god's gift to a dull, grey mugging college. God gave us to sharon phua, to teach her the meaning of love (too bad she wasnt really here to witness it). God gave us to expose the dirty stuff inside a certain Sui Ho. God used us to show the rest, that their lives suck, and therefore, improve it! But merciful god also gave us loving OGLs, without whom, we wouldnt be A02. By no means, were we beautiful alone.
"good things never last forever". That was what that certain Sui Ho said. But my reply was "If we have a choice to make it last forever, why not?"
And we do have a choice now, so why not? it doesnt have to be kneeling outside the office for 7x7=49 days. just setting aside space in our hearts, for each of the very 22 who were in nJ is already enough. To merit a place in someone's heart, with which hold till death, will probably be the greatest impact man will ever leave.
And A02 has left that impact, in me.